3,153,600,000 seconds

They said that when you truly love someone, there’s nothing in this world that can stop you from loving them no matter how evil, mean, bad, or annoying they are. At first, I think that true love only happens in fairy tales. It means, it doesn’t exist. I never thought it could happen in real life. Relationships end, families fight, and your closest friends betray you. In this world where there’s only despair and sadness, I never really expected much of anybody. I’ve seen people come, I’ve seen people go. The cycle repeats as if it is being played like a movie.

I’ve lived without expecting anything from anyone, and I’ve put a huge barrier against me and everyone. In this world of tears and sweat, I never really knew what is the meaning of love. Men, for thousands of generations want to put a clear definition as if it is a do or die. However, nobody really succeeded. Everyone have their own definition of love, but I just repeated their own definitions. Though human, I felt as if I am a machine who is incapable of loving anyone, not because I don’t want to know how it feels like to love, but because nobody showed me how. Day by day, year after year, second after second, time after time. I waited. Patiently. Even begging. For someone to show me how. However, nobody did.

Until, one day, one man came and destroyed the barrier of my soul.

For most people, they expect a prince charming or a knight in his shining armor. Contrary to people’s expectation, my prince charming and my knight in shining armor, came as an ordinary man just like everybody. He doesn’t really have a very handsome face or a very outstanding feature. He is just the average-looking guy who people would never really expect much. He came to rescue me from all the things that I used to be. He may not be the person I expected Him to be, but, everything about Him is perfect. Though He suffered when I was so stubborn, He only smiled at me. Though I am giving up in everything, He is just there to cheer me up, saying, “Try one more time.” He taught me to never give up. He taught me how to let go. He taught me that all people are not the same. He taught me to appreciate all the good things and the bad things. He taught me how to forgive. But the greatest of all, He taught me the greatest thing that nobody in this world can ever learn. Love. He taught me that in this world of despair and sorrow, there exists a fairy tale where true love is real. In those precious moments that He taught me, I realized that HisĀ 3,153,600,000 seconds of being on this earth is the result of His love for someone like me. I am a nobody. But for a nobody like me, who is only a speck of dust in the grand scale of the universe, He spent 3,153,600,000 seconds. And even up until now that He is gone, He is truly not gone. He is here with me. In my heart, soul, and mind. Father, thank You. Thank You so much for spending 100 years-3,153,600,000 seconds, of Your life for me. Thank You for showing me that true love is T-I-M-E.